You are everything I want - and I do not want that.

"You are everything I want—and I do not want that. I do not want my projections, merely. They are empty, brittle, sour.

I like sour, when it is a lemon.

I do not like sour, when it is a heart.

I do not want to fall for my projection of you—I will fall into your mirage and come up with desert dust in my mouth.

As Dr. Seuss says, love is love when it not what we dreamed of, but something better, weirder: because it is real."

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