This past year, I have been in the most important relationship I have ever been in.
I have been in a relationship with myself; my body and soul.
Each morning I wake up, and I ask it,
"What do you need today?"
First I ask my body, and then I ask my soul.
Because your body is a machine; a vessel; and a mistreated vessel cannot do much for the cargo that it is carrying. An adventure seeking pirate is nothing without his ship.
This past year has been one big chemical experiment.
What happens if I put this in my body? What is the reaction?
What if I eliminate this? What if I only eat this?
It has been a huge trial and error.
I did none of this because I wanted to adjust my weight, or change my body in any way to gain approval from spectators. I did this because I want to be able to hear what my body is telling me, something that I feel is so important when it comes to loving yourself.
I was tired of always feeling exhausted, and in a mental fog.
As a result, I feel so much healthier.
Ive learned that it is really hard for my body to hold onto a lot of weight in general, and I do struggle a lot to come to terms that it is okay. That my body is naturally tiny, and that is just how I was made. Im not a curvaceous woman. I don't have a lot of 'meat on my bones'.
Please don't tell me to eat a cheeseburger, because it just makes your heart look ugly, and you look ignorant into the belief that women should all look the same, just as much as it would if you told an overweight woman to eat less.
This is how I am made.
I am healthy, and that is what is important.
My soul is simple. It wants few things.
She wants adventures and she wants love.
I have been traveling a lot and she has been very pleased with me,
and the people in my life have been nothing short of amazing, with their endless amounts of love and support.
And I am about give her the biggest gift I have ever given, and it is the one she has been waiting her entire existence for. Im giving her the gift of a new city. So very soon.
I can't wait to see her energy light up and take off like an unstoppable rocket.
Because this past year, I fell in love.
And I will protect, care, and love her more than anything in the world.
I will not settle for anything or anyone that aims to dull her shine.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
